I can’t believe we are already a week into the new year, I know I say it a lot but time sure does fly. I want to start by saying that I hope everyone has had a lovely Christmas and new year and that 2018 is as great as you want it to be. We had a lovely quiet Christmas at home and it was so nice to not be rushing around or having Matthew needing to be in work over the festive period. This week everyone is back to school and work and I can begin to get the house back into some kind of order, as much as I love having them all at home ( and I do) it’s nice to have my normal back – yay for having my routine back as it should be.
I have to start my look back / look forward with a massive thank you to everyone who has supported me and worked with me in the last twelve months. To my close family and friends I know I haven’t been the easiest person to be around but I want you to know that the love and commitment you have shown me has been appreciated and very much felt especially when my anxiety and worries have been at their worst. I am happy to say that at the minute they are probably the lowest they have been for a long while. To those of you who don’t understand why I went to another family members wedding and not yours or your sisters birthday party and not yours, and to those homes I don’t visit when asked or when Matthew has brought the boys on his own please believe me when I say that I am sorry and it’s not intentional or personal my anxiety doesn’t care who it upsets or when it appears. But I promise you this I am working hard to fight as it won’t win. please, please keep inviting me to your home, events and nights out I will get there eventually.
2017 has seen some massive changes for me. I took the leap and became self-employed with My Three and Me. Without the encouragement from my online besties, best friends in real life and the other half, I would never have made the jump because I have always felt that I wasn’t good enough to make it work other than as a hobby. But thanks to you all I did make the jump and quite successfully too. Let’s hope that 2018 is just as successful.
My Hopes For 2018
I don’t have hopes for riches and to live happily ever after – although they would be lovely, I do have a few things that I’d like to
- For my boys, Matthew and I and all our family and friends to be healthy and happy
- To kick anxiety’s butt good and proper and not let it hold me back from doing things any longer
- To go away on holiday – it has been at least 6 years since our last family holiday
- To carry on and be as successful with My Three and Me as I was in 2017
- To book my wedding – yes I know I have said this for the last 5 years (at least) but we are finally seeing the end of the tunnel where it is possible to start the actual planning – Summer 2019 and in New York – I can’t wait…
- To learn to drive
- To laugh more
- To remember what’s important
2018 I am ready for everything and anything you throw my way